I don't really have anything to say, besides the fact that today was a bad day. I am tired of trying. I am tired of working for goals that will never come true. I am tired of things never, and I mean NEVER going my way. I am tired of always being disappointed.
I want to run away a be someone else.
I want out
I have found myself saying those same words so very many times. Last Winter's end I was saying them. Two Falls ago I was practically singing them. I know what it's like to wish more than anything to run away to Alaska and just live a different life.... perhaps I haven't gotten entirely away from that dream ;).... Lately I've found that my strength truly comes from something else. It comes from a hope of a better day. Sometimes we find ourselves seeing the world for the way it really is, difficult, painful, disappointing. Look to the simple and beautiful. Start simple and work bigger. For every shadow there is a brilliant shining light that stands just behind an obstacle blocking our view. Don't give up looking for brilliance. Love ya Corts.
ReplyDelete